Happy 2023!

Isn’t it kind of funny how something that you once put on the ultimate pedestal can no longer align with the person you are today?

A really good friend said something that really struck me - they told me that I’m trying to hold on and do too much, but I have to let go of something before I lose everything.

I’ve spent this past year slowly letting go of many things, but I’ll be the first to admit that I haven’t done a good job of fully letting go.

What am I so afraid of? I’ve been so conditioned to live my life a certain way for the last few years, it was hard for me to see what the issue is. And now that I’ve identified it, I’m such a control freak that my next fear is dealing with the change. Yet, change is life’s only constant, and maybe it’s time I learn the lesson to relinquish some control and go with the flow.

I hate that I live with a scarcity mindset - in my head I know there is abundance, that what is meant for me will not miss me - and yet, something overrides that and tells me if I don’t give in to something or say no enough times, opportunities are going to get taken away from me. But is that really how it is, or is that a story I’m telling myself?

I’m finding that the more I stand my ground, the more I feel like I’m alienating myself. Some days I feel so lonely, that I don’t know what else to do but throw myself into this vicious cycle of distraction - keeping myself so busy to the point that I run myself into the ground. I can’t seem to sit in the stillness.

But as we move into this new year, this thought plagues my mind - is it more important to be well-liked or to feel peace? I’ve decided my mantra for 2023 is to LET GO - and I hope with that, more peace will flow too.

Wishing you a Happy New Year and I hope that everything you manifest for 2023 comes true!

xo,
Keshia